| that is all. im just a failure, and i can't juggle school and work, and im a horrible gf, a horrible daughter, horrible student. incompetent and can't even make a decent image for work. and i can't even bring myself to talk about my feelings in a way that makes sense. #wishing the mountain lions in sc would just find me and eat me already |
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| i dont wanna do anything. i dont wanna go outside. music isnt the same. i cry every night and i dont know why i feel like this. |
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| long distance relationships are so hard. its weird, because sometimes I feel like he doesn't trust me, like when Im out with friends and stuff. If only he knew how much I talk about how he's the best boyfriend in the world, and that i love him so much that i would marry him in a heartbeat. but I dunno, I feel like if I tell him that I would marry him that I would just scare him away. T_T life has been so hard lately with family issues and money problems. I just wish he was here tonight so I can cuddle with him, or that I could just teleport so I can go cuddle with him... i mean i know i have his support but him physically being there just makes me feel so much better, so much more sure and more confident in the choises and decisions I make. and just... secure and loved i suppose. part of me just wants to quit school and move closer to him, but thats not very smart, i have about 4 quarters left until I get my degree, no point in quitting now, but je ne sais pas. all i have are wishes. |
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| im happy :D thanks hot boyfriend <33333 |
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